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What are some things you do when you procrastinate?

I am a huge procrastinator, HUGE. I will do everything to avoid something. If its school work I’m avoiding, I clean the entire house from top to bottom, if its the house I’m cleaning I will research a paper or be online doing, blogging, looking for wordpress themes I like (Which I found this one randomly and do really like it.), to being on facebook/facebook apps. Like Monopoly, Angry Animals, or I begin a story idea that I just have to do today. Right now I’m avoiding house work because its a rainy day and I just can’t bring myself to get up and do it. Not saying I won’t later… but I’m out of creamer for the coffee and out of milk and DAMN I really need a cup.

What are some of your bad habits?

Some of my bad habits are really personal and something I want to NOT talk about. However for the honesty of it all…..

SELF INJURY – This has been a very bad habit of mine for a long time, and while this bad habit (addiction according to counselor.) is under control it was still a bitch to get under control. Part of this is bottling up emotions and not speaking about them. Or if a beloved pet died… (like today and I did not cut.)

Procrastination- I come up with these awesome ideas for school, but then I sit down to write its like I have everything to do, except the paper. I work well under pressure, however its a really bad habit. I know I need to stop this and manage my time better, and so far so good!

Biting, ripping, tearing my finger nails and cuticles – This actually borderline goes along with self injury but when I get stressed, bored, or if I see one little cuticle out of place the entire nail has to be shortened by either cutting, biting, ripping, or tearing (often times until they bleed.) just to start over again. I am getting better but its a long road.

Biting my lower lip- I’ve done this my entire life and I have zero idea I do it until my lip is sore.

                    What are some of your pet peeves? How do you handle them if someone is doing them?

I have the strangest pet peeves. I don’t like odd numbers, pictures that are not straitly hung, and people repeating themselves. Actually things, people, alarms that repeat themselves have to be the number one. Like if a person says the SAME thing over and over again… *rips hair out* example:

Me: “Hello? How are you doing?” (On a cell phone.)

M(My sister’s ex boyfriend on a cell phone across the room.) “HELLO HELLO HELLO HELLO HELLO? I KNOW YOU’RE THERE! HELLO HELLO HELLO HELLO YEAH? HELLO HELLO HELLO HELLO” at the top of his lungs. *stabs*

I tend to like my apartment in a certain way and if someone comes in and messes with said apartment I tend to get annoyed easily because its a respect thing with me. But if you repeat the same word over and over again you’re gone. If you have an alarm that is one sound, not a song but one sound like a ring that repeats itself turn it off before I throw it out the door.

Generally I can handle it. I do ask people (read females) to stop clicking their finger nails off of one another. Like when my sister’s clean their finger nails and they make that noise OMG I want to throw up. Drumming them off the desk is fine I do that, but clicking them *gag*.

The song Kiss me Through the Phone. A cheating douchebag of an ex dedicated that song to me and I hate it. I dont’ want it played in my presence.

Describe in detail the goals you have for the month of August. List at least 5.

1. Complete this month of class with an A average. Do my work, and work hard, don’t half ass it.
2. Go through all of the extra crap around here and divide it into catagories, of trash, keep, sell, donate. I have way to much stuff and this is going to be important if I’m ever going to keep my house clean.
3. Organize. Find a place for everything and keep returning that thing to that place so I no longer loose things. Go through the toys I’ve got and throw away any I don’t like, don’t use, or are uncomfortable with.
4. Learn at least one new recipe. I loved the spaghetti I made last night and would like to do more things like that.
5. Loose 5 lbs. If I loose 5 lbs try for 5 more.

I’m really hoping that I can pull through with this list. I’ve been meaning to get this place organized, but in all honesty, it over whelms me and I give up. But I’m determined! I’ve come to a newly found peace with things. If its in the past, I can’t change it, so no sense in dwelling, re-hashing shit nor holding a grudge. Whatever has happened I take responsibility for and wish everyone from my past well. I accept that there are a lot of people that are no longer in my life, for good or bad reasons, but there are reasons just the same. My final goal is to keep this peace going and to no dwell on the drama others may bring. What they do, is on them. I can listen, but I don’t have to make it affect me personally. They are adults and can fend for themselves. If someone doesn’t accept your apologies or continues to hold whatever grudge that’s on them. The grudge they keep will be eating them from the inside out, not me. I release all the bad and seek out the good, the beautiful and the note worthy. For the first time in my life I am happy. I am beyond content… I’m happy. I’ve found my niche and all those other’s don’t matter any more.

If you could travel back in time by 10 years is there anything you’d change? Would you warn your past self of things to come? If so what? And why or why not?

If I could travel back 10 years I would tell myself that, its ok to be different, but don’t rebel to be a bitch. Keep your faith strong and don’t run with the trench coat mafia crowd. If an old friend invites you to sit at his lunch table with his friends, don’t. Stick to the girls you grew up with, the ones that will still talk to you after high school. Stick to counseling and remember, everything happens for a reason.
I would also tell myself to not go to the bar that night, to not accept the guy’s phone number and not go out on a date with him. To apply to BYU and maybe go on a mission. To forgive others and yourself, and do.not.babysit.with.A-B. To work hard in cosmetology and don’t let people get to you. Study hard, don’t do drugs, and if you do end up in the Meadows, afterward ditch your ‘friends’ they are no good for you, forgive your grade school friends, and avoid certain red heads. Blonds will get you in trouble, and if you don’t believe me ask him about C. I would also advise my pig headed self to be nicer to Mom. And don’t try to save the world at risk to yourself. Also, don’t deny yourself anything you enjoy. Who cares if people are telling you not to try out for things like cheerleader? Go for that song in voice lessons that you love and work towards hitting that high note. Because you can do it. And when you catch a certain family in your church talking trash about you, smile, and hand them a bible verse and walk away.

I’d also tell myself good job on the accomplishments that I’ve done, publishing a book, winning an editor’s choice award for a few poems, and making Dean’s list.

Veracity‘s blog challenge Day 1.