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EdenFantasys is one of the many websites that are all geared up towards Valentines Day. However, my birthday is.. TODAY! With it being my birthday I really wanted to treat myself. Like maybe a Divine Toy Chest to help care and storage of the toys I have now. Or maybe some toy cleaner to help keep my girly parts clean and happy, I use anti bacterial soap right now. It would be nice to have actually toy cleaner. OR for fantasy role play I could get this kitty costume. In all honesty I love vibrators especially rabits… I think the Japanese G-spot squirmy would have to be my choice.

My cousin we’ll call her C, has been staying with us for about two weeks now. In that two weeks C has been trying to find an apartment she can afford through a program that our county has. Well during all of this she was whining all the freaking time. She’d hooked up with several guys, was texting several more and wouldn’t get off her ass to actually help herself. Well C and I got into it today because, you can’t help someone who won’t help themselves. You can’t take their hands and lead them through life its not fair to you, or them.

I’ll be honest, I’ve been there, I’ve been at the bottom fighting my way through life. And what really pissed me off, is that C’s attitude of poor pity me no one understands me. Cut the emo bullshit. How dare you say that I don’t know? I’ll be honest my life compared to some hasn’t been hard. But how can you say that when I’ve been depressed, and suicidal. I’ve been where she’s been. I’ve had my own dumb mistakes and ya know what? I’m stronger for learning from them… I don’t hide behind them. At least not anymore.I’m all for helping people that want help, but helping people that don’t want help, and won’t get out of their own way is pointless.

Another thing that C would do is bring a lot of high school drama. It went far enough that the people she was pissing off, became threatening towards my sister and I. So after enough bullshit. I told her she needed to find a place ASAP. Then I told her the truth that everyone was trying to tell her. Sure I’m a bitch… sure it was hard. But she needed to hear it.