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Except for making some cookies for my hiding in my room fest on the 14th, I am boycotting Valentine’s Day. This is the first year after the break up for Valentine’s Day and I’m just not in the mood to celebrate.   I just want to be alone for the day. I have to take a bus up to the doctor’s office, and then come home and forget the stupid day even exists. I’ve tried everything to cheer myself up, but nothing is working.

I went grocery shopping today, helped Jet get the laundry around. Then got two phone calls to walk down to the laundry mat to drop of things to her, and then because she got called into work, I went grocery shopping. I did my homework had a cup of coffee, dinner and now am shut up in my room because, well because my sister wanted to go to bed. I won’t turn this into a whining fest or anything so I’ll get off.

There has been one dream that I haven’t accomplished yet. That is to be married, and have children. I’ve denied this dream for a long time because well, things weren’t right. Nothing in my life clicked and because of this I did everything in my power to hold off. There were times that I thought a baby would be on the way, only to have a miscarriage. I’ve always dreamed of a little girl or two and a boy. I’m not sure if I could handle more than one boy, to be honest. A lot of being a parent takes being disciplined enough and to able to plan a head. I know that I have allergies to latex and that could be passed on. Am I going to have to use cloth diapers? Are my allergies going to be passed down?

In all honesty I can’t wait to be a Mommy. But I’m smart about it. I refuse to rush into anything and am getting an education so that myself and my future family can have an income. I’m 26 years old and all of my life goals have been accomplished, I think I have time for this last one.

I’ve been downloading plugins for wordpress like mad tonight to try to keep everything organized and to make sure it stays that way. Does anyone know anything about live journal crossover plugin? I have several livejournals and a dreamwidth and have no idea how to go any future then install. Crappers! Any plugins or themes you’d recommend?