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Lately, ok for the past several months I’ve been trying to keep nail polish on my fingers and my fingers manicured. Why you ask? I have this terrible habit of picking at my nails, hang nails etc. SO I have 1100 hours of cosmetology right? So why not use it! My nails are not long and painted (for the moment.) in Renee the latest Julep Maven box color I got. I adore it, its a really soft, pretty lilac color.  So while my nails dry I am writing up this blog entry, then its back to cleaning.

I can’t believe its less than a month till my surgery! It kind of blows my mind. However, I ate something that disagreed with me today and it caused gas and instant bloat, not fun. Tomorrow I have a personal trainer sesson again since I had to miss last weeks. This one is at 9:30 (instead of the 7:30 am one on Wednesdays) so I hopefully will be able to get it taken care of then go to Zumba tomorrow night. I literally have to build myself back up to working out every single day. I was doing great until Grandpa died.

I’ve been reading this fantastic book by Sherri Shepard called ‘Permission Slips’ I highly recommend it to any women married, single, children or none. Its a good book about giving yourself a break and not being so hard on yourself.  I’ve taken a lot of what I’ve read into consideration since Grandpa’s passing. Instead of freaking out over my lack of going to the gym daily, I’ve given myself a break and forgiven that.

I also died my hair. Let me tell you about the new Garnier Frutise line of hair dye. They are all supposed to be on a minium of 10 min. My hair is resistant, even if its stripped, bleached and blond. (or in this case, blond, red, purple and one or two strips of hot pink) so I left it on for an hour. Hair dyes will not damage your hair if they are on that long, you probably will run into the dye looking black because it stopped processing. I thought my hair was black it was so dark. I had to touch up a few spots but other than that it’s all even now. But my hair was supposed to be a light auburn. Its a deep ruby red. I love it, I just have to laugh at the color change.

I’ve also been playing W.o.W. again. I got a three month card and made a blood elf hunter that’s now nearly a lvl 10.  What can I say? I love it!

Well folks, for those of you that are paying attention, Pennsylvania has suddenly turned into Florida with bipolar weather, and rain every time you sneeze. So yes in the areas that are already devastated by flood, its pouring. YAY! *sarcasm* So what am I going to do this rainy day? CLEAN.  My kitchen is very much a disaster and I truly need to buckle down and clean it. After that I am going to try to neaten up the bathroom, the living room, vacuum etc. I’m hoping that my payment comes in for the paid blog posts that I’ve done, because I REALLY could use that money.

I had my interview with the low income housing and now comes the waiting game. So I am putting my time to good use at least. Last night I has such a bad back ache that I took some pain relief medicine and just went to bed. Today I’m eating a banana for breakfast to see if that will help. It was just so weird, it started yesterday while I was at Chinese with my Mother and it started in my left side and just spread.

My poor dog isn’t going to like me after a while, I am going to have to take her out and its raining. I know she’s not going to want to go, but damnit, I’m out of puppy pads and I haven’t been able to order the reusable ones yet. I’m also trying really hard to get rid of all the fruit flies, flies etc that came in when the door was wide open. I can’t believe that door made me feel so insecure! Ok I can it had a screen duct tabled to a door and that was it. Now thankfully there is a board over the hole. MMMM I forgot how good coffee could taste first thing in the morning…

This week I’ve had two small victories during this weight loss journey of mine. The first, is that I worked out 5 days in a row, and today I managed to work out for a total of 55 minutes doing Just Dance 2 and Summer Party. My other small victory is because I have to do weekly weigh ins I’ve decided to make Saturday night mine. I’ve lost *drum roll please* 2.3 lbs. I know that this is a rather small victory, but its a victory none the less. I am so excited. In six months I have to loose at least 37 lbs. That’s a 1 lb a week and I’ve already lost a few!

I’ve also learned the value of stretching, muscle cream, and massage settings on the shower! LOL. Ugh tomorrow I have to finish cleaning the bath room, and its the one room that I can’t stand to clean, because its always so much work. And on top of all of that, I need to some how change my shower curtain. The kittens decided they didn’t like the shower curtain, or it had offended them at the very least, and shredded the entire bottom half. I have a spare thankfully, and from now on I am going to make sure its not dangling for the kittens to reach. Imagine my surprise this morning when I got up to shower.

I have some friends that are letting me shoot their engagement pictures and their wedding pictures, I need the practice and they needed a photographer.

Lately I’ve been really gun-ho about standing up for myself. I’m not trying to be a huge bitch about everything or anything for that matter, but I’m not going to take things laying down either. There have been two times that I stood up to the one person that I never thought I could. And it didn’t end in a huge fight, it just ended, we talked and we understand each other. I can’t help but to be happy for myself over this. Baby steps you know?
So I went to bed last night talking to C, who is amazingly sweet, and ended up tossing and turning until I took off my PJ’s and just curled up with the blanket. I’d had a migraine when I went to bed and it just got worse. I think it was the combination of working on the carpets with the Resolve carpet spot shot high traffic ¹ and the Arm and Hammer Pet order remover… or the re-doing my nails. Which by the way I have gone 30 days with out biting, peeling, or breaking a nail! ² I’m still working on wearing make up and doing my hair every day for 30 days strait but C seems to think I’m beautiful no matter what.
Its nice to have something besides doom and gloom on my mind. I’ve been working a lot on my self esteem and taking risks. Its funny because I’d almost panicked when C was on his way up, but I kept telling myself that love is a risk and if I keep hiding out from the risks of life, then I won’t actually live. And it was so worth it.
I lost my driver’s license which means I am going to have to tear apart this bedroom until I find it. That beyond sucks because until I can afford a space saver bag and cube set, I have a bit of a mess on my hands. ³ Well I gotta get back to school work, and unfortunately can’t stay here and blog more. (sad) However everything is due today… fun fun fun!